To be blown out

[Probably, it's an urban poetry]


What am I thinking?

I've messed up last project evaluation as bad as one can't imagine.

I have to give a demo presentation in two hours.

I have slept 4 hours yesterday.

I feel sleepy... and probably take a nap for one hour after listening some of Pink Floyd's depressants.

Am I afraid?

betcha! I am.

failure has become too frequent to refrain myself thinking about it.

Frustration?

... is a state of mind I, currently, am in.

You have things to do, you know you can do it, you have drive (drive to finish it so that I can go Home -> as my elder sister says.)

But you don't do. It is not lethargy, laziness or sloth.

It is SATURATION.

I AM SATURATED WITH FAILURES
LEFT WITH NO EXPECTATION FROM THIS PLACE (IIT KHARAGPUR)
I NEED A FRESH START.
I Want to end IIT Kharagpur chapter asap.

... let time to end it, I won't.


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Stanzas written in dejection near temple.
May 9, 2007. 2:00 PM. IIT Kharagpur. India